In Solitude...

It has always been my heart's desire to be alone and to be in silence so I can be with myself. Right now, I am having this moment of silence. My kids are out...and I am all by myself. Now I have the chance to be in touch with my self...to inhale...exhale...to close my eyes and be in the moment of silence...I began to listen to my heartbeat...the sounds my ears are capable of hearing...what a wonderful experience...I never had this chance for a long time...to be in solitary moment.

As I put myself into quiet moment, I came to renounce some of my senses, and with this, I was able to listen to myself. I haven't done this for a long time...to be alone for a while...to just free my mind of any concerns...not thinking of anything...no worries, no fears...no emotions, no wants, no desires...just being with my self...and embrace the silence...I know and I was aware that I was in the state of reverence because I was with the presence of the Spirit. How I wish I can be in this situation for a longer time...but I have to be back to reality...back to the world of noise.

With the experience, I was able to mortify my heart and experience deep sense of silence. I was able to talk to myself and speak to my soul and have the awareness of my very own existence.

It Could Happen to You! Be Careful...

Things happened so fast...I was on my way home from DFA Clark Pampanga when all of a sudden I felt sort of being dizzy. It was so uncontrollable that I was unconscious and unaware for few minutes. The last thing I can remember was I was so sleepy and so I closed my eyes and sort of just nap or sleep.

I came to my senses with the cough of the man behind me...I was riding a jeepney...and so my tendency is to look at him because his cough was unusual. Since there is a vacant seat in front of me, I moved and sat in front of him...there I saw my bag opened...I closed it and look at him.. still he is coughing...I saw him trembling as he cough then he get rushly off the jeepney.

I remember that I have to text a friend...and so I need to get my my cell phone...but to my surprise... it is gone...I have searched my bag but it is nowhere to be found. I was alarmed not knowing what to do...the natural reaction...I was frantic and sad for the loss, but I tried to cool down and think of the best thing to do. So I went home and tried to call my number....nobody answers but I can hear sounds...I begged for my victimizer to return to me my sim card because I need my contacts...I pleaded...and offered him an amount for it....but to my dismay...he did not reply. I tried to kip in touch for several times but got no answer.

Yes, I was a victim. Sometimes in life we encounter untoward incidents that are beyond our control. Even if we are aware and conscious of what is around us, we experience situations that we do not like or we less expected. But looking it in a positive way, I do believe that if we loss a thing we will gain something. That things happen for a reason.

Our reaction to a situation will definitely make the kind of day we will have. In my case, since I got many friends, my reaction was just to tell them about what happened. At that time, all I want is to inform them what happened to me, to narrate the incident. I just need to express and to let go of my feelings. And I was overwhelmed by the comforting and consoling words they have given me. I have realized my importance because of their concern and because of their care. I was touched by their words and by their reaction to what happened to me.

Yes, I may have lost my cell phone and my contacts in it but I have gained moments ... comforting and consoling words my friends have given me. Words that will remain in my heart - that will forever be valued and treasured- for the rest of my life.

Yesterday may not have been a good day for me, but I still have today and tomorrow which I believe could hold pleasant surprises and wonderful blessings. I believe in my heart that things can turn around and can still be excellent in the days to come.

To all my friends who were with me in my situation, I express my deepest gratitude to you. I really appreciate your being there for me guys.

Thank you so much!

A Day with Minnie...

I had a great day yesterday because I was with Minnie, a pretty and lovely lady. Actually, it was my first time to be with her since most of the time she was with my son Gene, when he was still in the country. We were together because we visited my mother in law's grave since it was her birthday.

What do I like about her? I like her being nice and friendly. I like her smile...her simplicity and politeness are the traits that make me love her more. At first, I can sense that she was uncomfortable but as we go along with our moments, finally she became at ease with me.

I wish she will just be able to hold on and hang on in her relationship with my son, for to maintain a long distance relationship is difficult and challenging. I know at times she is sad and lonely, but she has to accept the reality and just be strong.

With the time I had with her, I was able to know her personally and was able to give her some pieces on advice. We had a good exchange of thoughts and enjoyed the food as well. I hope to have more bonding moments with her in the future.

Thanks a lot Minnie for being with me and for a wonderful day! I will just be here for you always. Take care and hope to see you again soon...